Leave it to me to give everything I have to the man I love and to be left with nothing in the end. Everyday it gets harder. And everyday I know we grow farther apart and it kills me. All I ever wanted was for us to be together. And now that is done. And no matter how much I wish I could change it I can’t. I see him with other people. Going on as if he didn’t lose someone he loved. And I can’t go a day without shedding a tear thinking about how I lost him. It makes me question if any of it was real. If I made you feel the way I felt. I hope I did. I hope this is all a terrible dream. I want to wake up.